10/10/10

i wish it was me instead

i wish it could be my turn, right now, right here, with you here with me.

not gonna let this impatience run me over.

gonna be strong and have faith =)

must be one of those days

Don't quite know where I'm standing at anymore. Just in the middle of crossroads .
don't know where to turn, who to turn to. "Who am I?", voices in my head.

i haven't touched my blog for so long heh.

heh.

anyways, semester 2 began three weeks ago. So yes, next week will be week 4 of uni! so far so good. lol

can't wait for my next holidays though haha. which will be around at the end of September!!!!

feels like the beginning

I cherish every moment spent with you . You are my light and will forever be my guiding star. I made a promise and a commitment ever since we first started this journey together. I`ll be your rocks and the rough waves that come rushing upon the shores. I`ll never let you go out of my arms because I believe we can make it through together if we continue to believe what we believe in ....I love you Harry Saputra

~31 months and going :) ♥ ♥

a time machine would be good right now..

so tired and sleepyyyy....

i don't wanna say this but,,,

i am losing.

my.

patience

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gahhh :(((((.... just want to finish my exams already!! and gettttt on the darrrnnnn plane!

i wished my exams weren't so spaced out....at the same time i wouldn't want a schedule that's tight either =\

9 days to go!!!! LET`S GO LET`S GOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

not gonna let you go

i just need to wait for another two and a half years to know where i really am standing .

could you wait ? will you wait ?

Think i'm adapting to my surroundings around melbourne university already. and my timetable that consists of very hectic hours - 5 hours in a rowww.

woohoo !

:)

hello year 12.

Last year, i was all excited to just finish off with year 12 and its tough exams which i had studied so hard for, and to just look forward to university. I have lots of people giving me comments that uni is great, offers you so much more freedom etc etc. Made it sound like uni is so relaxing...ahhh and i so couldn't wait for it...

and now? i feel like i've been bombed with piles of work to do!! which explains the title of this blog.. ooo yes.

you liars, uni offers freedom for you because you're doing commerce you bums! :P . damn man, i never realised how my Science course would take up so much of my time. In total, i have 22 hours in a week, from all in mondays to fridays. whilst for others, just 14 hours.. and they would only require to go to uni for three days...the least would probably be just two lol...

which makes me even more furious!!

I thought i could survive my first week of uni . *shakes head* nah uh. that was not the case. So hello year 12 :) i think i missed you . NOT !

okay maybe i'm not furious, i just feel stressed with this workload. and taking up biology, is all a new thing to me. I am trying to adapt to reading long sections of biology work and trying hard to remember its' names and functions and yeahhhh you know what i mean when it comes to biology right!

Anyway, some pictures to end this post in a happier way. :) :) I spent time with my lovely girlfriends, audrey, mandy and renee yesterday on iced chocolate. We talked a lot in 3 hours. like non-stop! Look how much there is to catch up when you're in a different uni .. :( :( . i miss them so muchh, wish they could be in the same uni as i was..

All the best girlfriends! hope university for you would be merrier soon too!

would definitely go back to black250 cafe located at blackburn road, just beside barryplant, to have some more of this $6 iced chocolate!!! too good! yums! :D

PS: i forgot to add that yesterday's hailstorm and heavy rain was so crazzzy! can't believe there was so much damage caused! We prayed for rain for you melbourne, but we definitely did not ask for disaster!!! It rained crazy today as well, but probably not as bad as yesterday! hopefully tomorrow would be a sunny one! haha!

til then folks!

x

optimism

Talk about E F F O R T S .

If someone didn`t make an effort to show up to your birthday party, or meet up as promised, wouldn`t you feel ......upset ?

I feel like i am always making an effort here ...

I never knew it could be that hard to click with people . Maybe this is just the start, of an orientation . Just getting to know people, introduce who you are, that sort of stuff . I think I am being so comparative with friends in uni and the old friends i hang out usually back in high school . I miss everyone of em' so much. Though we're in the same uni, it's unfortunate that i am not doing the same course(s) as they are :( .

I am trying to be optimistic here.



and on top of all that, my uni hours for the course i am doing is hectic sh*t .

22 hours in a week, whilst for my other friends, who are doing commerce have only 14 hours.

the least would be 12hours per week? and just three days of uni ?

i have five days of uni . FIVE DAYS . According to a friend of mine, she says it is like "having year 12 every year in a three year science course."


science equals migraine .

woohoo. Orientation in Melb Uni was so FUN!!!!!!

okay maybe i'm exaggerating . a little perhaps .

uh so. i hope tomorrow's subjects orientations are worth attending . i do not want to waste my $5.60 on a bus ticket . AT LEAST i met some new & `friendly` peeps today ..and i didn't get lost around the campus... so shout YAY to me please!

Please pray that i will not have anymore groggy days!! I have been soooo damn exhausted from moving houses and such,....sleeping late at night and thus, waking up early the next morning to hear the sounds of loud bangings and hammering from the kitchen renovation . Think at most days, i had only slept 5 hours in total.

i have been telling myself to take naps when i have the time, but when i want to do so, i can't :( .

*sings cry me a river*

I AM soooo..

sleep deprivedd!!!! I have been packing my stuff and moving into another house this whole week. and the bad thing is that, i haven't finished!! I still have lots to pack!! ahh just kill me! =\ .

i can barely open my eyes already :( . forced myself to wake up bcoz we hired somebody to fix in new bathroom vanity cabinets and toilets.

The house looks so much nicer and brighter now :) . It used to look much worse when we first took our first steps in . The walls were dirty and had UGLY UGLY wallpaper on them and the floors were in a bad state.

Now the Walls are painted bright blue, wallpapers pasted across the kitchen was obviously a no-no so it was taken down! thank God. Door frames choco coloured, the floorboards all polished and shiny...

The next step is to renovate the ugly kitchen ! haha. That means there shall be no cooking whatsoever in this house just yet! i guess that calls for eating out more often. EEEEK! hopefully they can get it done within a week`s time...IT would be better if they didn't take that long to renovate. I had been eating out three days straight already. My body system says that i have enough of MSGs and salt... lots of salt.

Yesterday, my parents gave me a shock. I mean, after all the long process of moving big furnitures and lots of other stuff from another house to the other, my dad said: "Next year, we'll be buying a NEW house! that's my next project."

my response? "ARE YOU CRAZY? WE'RE GONNA MOVE AGAIN?!!?" *almost died already in that situation*

o yer, trust me. One year is not long from now ..... hopefully they`ll get one somewhere else :D, not melbourne!! Melbourne provides OLD and rundown houses like mine!! hahaha. Hopefully perth! oh perthhh! cheap and new houses!!! then i can go visit someone!! WOOHOO. kay i'm getting all hypes when decision hasn't been made yet.

alrighty, i gotta go! updates later :)

a ridicule .

When time passes so quickly that you don`t even seem to notice it has gone by that much,

don't you just wish you can just wind the clock and turn back time ? just so you could make up

the time you have wasted doing stupid, useless things . Or maybe, you wanted to rewind time

just so you could spend more time with your loved ones.

And at the same time, if you hate being in a current situation and you want to escape from it

freely, don`t you just want time to just tick quickly and make the future arrive faster ?

Have you ever felt this way? because i have.

I feel like i'm tearing apart . thinking about this makes me feel worse .

Unbelievable . how can time affect my life this much ?

The time has given me depression .

oh time. please fast forward ! or rewind. whichever will do, as long as i'm always happy .

14th of February .

Valentine`s Day is the day where couples express their love to each other; the attempt to exchange of tokens of affection. The best thing about valentine's is that it happens only once a year! .. so to make your partner feel extra special and loved, you spam them with gifts and express what you truly have for them.

A week ago, i posted a small note saying that i will show you some 'card' :], I didn't say what card it was but yes anyways, it was a valentine's one. It took me a long time to make it all pretty because i haven't done cards for so long O.O ..This valentine's day, i thought i should just buy a v-card which has love poems on the front page which fairly describes the love that we have together for all these years. I decided to have the insides to be empty and white so i can personalise the insides with decors and spam the card with my own romantic words. :)

Here are the details of the card :]

the envelope. (:

i attached beads and two heart paper clips onto the card to hold it together. took me awhile to get it fastened together. the most important thing is to keep it together and not get it loose.

The decor in the inside(; i Sewed him a heart ! ^^

i bought my baby kokoblack chocos too, packed in the express post platinum bag.. and by the time it got to perth, it melted :( .

so, what did you do for your love ones on this very special day? (:

bored .

Is anyone crazy on trying to lose weight, and to think that being skinny is sexy? like trying to be skinny like, almost reaching to the extent of anorexia? O.O

i think i'm having such crazy symptoms. LOL . not that i'm ano or anything, but being skinny makes me feel happy :] but FOOD is just so irresistible. I can be really fat if i want to, i have been through that path before =\ . Weighed 48 kgs. Had loads and loads of durian smacked into my face and lots of other delicacies. yum ;)

i enjoy eating but i don't want to be fat . i truly envy those who can enjoy eating so much and can still be so skinny. rarrrrr .

i guess i should just be happy that i've got food to eat, instead of complaining about it...O.O''

so i guess this rant i started was pointless.

sorry i wasted your time reading this ;O

stay tuned .

ahh. so i've finished making the card! will show you the detaiils soon! (: perhaps in a week's time!

Holidays this month in February had been a tad boring. i haven't been doing anything but stoning O.O! and munching on Thins' sour cream and chives chips, ice-cream, yogurt, fries, soft drinks, kfc, maccas etc etc! I know you must be thinking, what the hell have i been eating all this while.. i am such in a unhealthy state . .

I still have lotsa stuff to pack to move in to another house.. which will be on chinese new year's eve. I've been really lazy ever since coming back from indonesia :( .. everyday`s like a bludge T.T ,, Mum has been teaching me how to drive since last week... so far i've only driven for exactly two hours. I feel like giving up already. *kicks manual car* ...However, there seems to be a few encouraging me not to quit ;] .. hm, rather interesting. hehe .

Btw i'm enrolled into the University of Melbourne. Just thought you should know that ;) .. haha jks .. i'll be doing science there for 3 years. i hope i can get the course finished and done as soon as possible in just 3 years time. :) ...hopefully without failing, that was what i was trying to say. @.@" I guess i'm kinda looking forward to my first day at uni, i've never known what it felt like ... Lots of people say that "you`ll get lots of freedom" etc etc, ... i guess i'll just have to see for myself to judge ey!

Valentine`s day falls on chinese new year's day apparently. have u guys noticed? ;P ... I haven`t really thought of what to buy for the BF yet . Any suggestions ?

:(